I'm baaack! (edited)

Hey! I'm in Philly for the week. I had a meetings Tuesday thru Thursday and now I'm chillin' with my girl, Mik for the weekend. This is my second weekend off in a row!! What you know about that?? I might get spoiled. lol
The meeting went ok. I'm part of this thing called a 20 group - where 20 BDC Managers from around the country get together and discuss ideas and issues that are occurring in their particular call center. I know it doesn't sound very interesting, but I usually come away with some pretty good ideas. This time I won 2nd plae int he best idea contest!!! Yeah for me -that's an extra 70 bucks!! Woohoo!! ;-)
I haven't posted in a minute, so we've got some catching up to do.
WEDNESDAY 6/14
The phones got turned on from the other dealership that hired my office for the Call Center!!! It's been a nightmare - their system overloaded ours so the phones and computers keep going down!! It's driving me insane!!!

FRIDAY - 6/16
My girl, Ang, came in from Atlanta. Because the lines had already been switched over from the other location, there was no way that I could get out of the office early. She cam up to the job and got my key, so she could go back to my crib and chillout until I was able to get away from the plantation.
When I got off, we went to my neighborhood seafood joint. We had a good time catching up. Although we talk often, we only see each other like once a year.
After dinner, we headed to the grocery store so I could pick up the goodies for Saturday night's festivities.
On the way to the store, I got a text from JP. I haven't heard a word from him since we talked a few months ago and I hadn't expected to hear anything else from him. He wanted to know how close I live to WV b/c he has to go down there for business ay the end of the month. I was telling him that it just depends on here he's going to be in WV. I don't live anywhere near there, but we have a dealership close to there. so depending on when he was going to be in town, I might be able to meet him.
We texted a few times throughout the night (while I was cooking) and then he asked if my Cousin had ever told me thta he said hello or told her to tell me to call him. I told him that she had told me that he had been askin' about me over the years, but not for me to call him - which I would have never done, anyway. <= But that's a nother story... It was really nice "talking" to him and I had forgotten how funny he is. SATURDAY 6/17
Saturday as soon as I got uo, I saw that JP had texted me and ask for a picture. Reminding me that it has been 8 years since we last saw/talked to eachother!!!! I had no idea that it had been that long!!! Where inn the hell has time gone!
Anyway, Saturday was great!! I was off work, but I woke up early anyway- ofcourse. Work has ruined my ability to sleep late!! We ate breakfast at Penera's and then we went shopping!! I found some of the cutest stuff!!! I bought one of those cute little charm Dooney & Bourke duffles, some really cute jeans, a sterling silver charm bracelet, a dressy little halter dress, some capris, a pair of sunglasses, and a couple casual TSHirts. The best part about all of that, aside from the fact that I was off work, was that they were all on sale!!!! You know a sistah loves a sale!!!!
Saturday night, my girls came over and we had a really good time! It's always interesting when you get friends together from from groups. You nevere know how it is going to work out and if everyone is going to get along. Luckily enough, everyone was cool. After they left, Ang and I sat and laughed about how bad we were when we were little kids. I took out all of these old letters and notes that we had written in high school!! We were so silly back in the day.
We finally wrapped it up about 1:30. She got in the bed and I sent JP a text.
He works nights, so he was up.
We ended up textin' until 4 in the morning!!! Don't ask why we didn't just pick up the phone and actually talk. Lol - I guess after 8 years, it was just more comfortable.
Okay, I have to go get my nails and feet done... I'll finish up about JP a little later.

So anywayz...
JP and I kept on texting. Tuesday he sent me a text while I was at the airport on my way to Philly. WHen I got to Philly I kept textin' him. It was enjoyin' catchin' up - aside from that, everybody else was at work. He works at night and doesn't have enuff sense to sleep during the day. Somewhere between Tuesday and Thursday, I was reminded of why we broke up in the first place. He's a jerk!! I won't be meeting him in WV. He sux... I should have blogged earlier b/c I don't even feel like goin' into all the detail at this point.

Things That Make You Say Hmmm

Here are a few things to think about that you probably have never thought about;

~Can you cry under water?
~How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
~Why do you have to "put your two cents in"... but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
~Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
~Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
~What disease did cured ham actually have?
~How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
~Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?
~If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
~Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
~Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to l look at things on the ground?
~Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
~Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
~If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
~Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
~If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
~ Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
~Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
~If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
~If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
~Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
~Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
~Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the window?

(I received this as a forward and I thought it was cute)

A Symbol of Starting Over... My Ass!!!

I had no idea what I was going to blog about today, so I was just trollin' around, checkin' up on ya'll. I was reading Organized Noise's post titled Should I Stay or Should I Go? and he got me to thinking about a time in my life that has long since past. I decided to share, so here goes:
I used to date this dude, let's call him Fats - for obvious reasons, but I digress. Anyway we dated for about 7 years. We met when I was a sophomore in college and dated the whole way through. We hit it off, almost immediately and before our first year anniversary we had already decided that after school, we would get married. It wasn’t official and we had not started making official plans, but it was known by everyone – including both of our families.
As time went on, we starting going through all types of drama. I was immature and very stubborn and he had his own little set of problems. After I moved off campus, he moved in with me and that’s when things really got interesting. It turned into the type of shit that you see on T.V. including: infidelity, arguments so bad that the neighbors called the police, his threatening to commit suicide with a gun which I found out was fake when the police arrived, broken dishes and tables, & thrown away articles of clothing just to name a few. I even hit him w/ a car – my friend’s 1989 Escort! HA!
You would think that we would have gone our separate ways after that, but that was not the case. While I was preparing for graduation and life after graduation, I decided to move to the small ass town that I live in now for a job. He wanted to move with me, but that was a no-go. I had already decided and let both he and his family know that I was no longer interested in marrying him.
We tried the long distance thing for a bit, but that just made things worse. Come to find out: distance does not really make the heart grow fonder. Who knew?? Lol
One night we had a long conversation and I was explaining to him that I did not think that the relationship was going to work out and that we probably needed to take a break. He was not tryin’ to hear that and insisted that we needed to try to get things back to what they had once been. My birthday was right around the corner and he came up to hang out for the weekend. We went to The Olive Garden (my favorite restaurant at the time) for a nice little dinner and some drinks. During the course of the evening, he gave me a letter that expressed his feelings and his belief that we could/should start all over. Then he gave me a beautiful diamond ring!!! Now, this would have been great if I had not just told his ass that I didn’t think that we were going to make it. When I saw the ring, I almost started cryin’. – not because I was happy, but because this was the last straw!! How was he just going to completely ignore what I had just told him a week or two before?? Like once I saw the diamonds, I would just forget about all the other bullshit?? I told him that I was ready to go. He had just ruined my evening!!! He was tryin’ to explain that it was not an engagement ring; it was a symbol of starting over blah blah blah…. He just did not get it!!!!
We left and don’t think I said more than a few words to him for the remainder of his stay.
About a week later, we were getting off the phone and he said that he loved me. I begrudgingly said it in return and then got off the phone. As soon as I hung up the phone, I decided to call him back and tell him that I had to get out of the relationship. I couldn’t do it anymore. I knew that I was not going to marry him and there was no need to continue this relationship. So that was it. I ended it that night.
I did have some doubts afterward, but in the end and ‘til this day, I KNOW that I made the right decision. I still keep in touch with his younger sister every once in a while. I know that he and his family are doing well. His Mom is still hoping that we will get back together… ain’t gone happen Moms…
When I bought my house, I changed my number so that I would stop receiving those pitiful all night phone calls.

I'm Not a Parrot

1. I've been in the house ALL day.
2. I've been cleaning out my office - shredding old documents, throwing away junk and reorganizing.
3. I just found out this weekend that I am a packrat.
4. How does so much shit accumulate??
5. I was going through some stuff on one of my bookcases and I found a bunch of old high school pics. I had to hurry up and look through them and put them away - otherwise I would STILL be looking through them and nothing would have gotten cleaned.
6. Amongst those pics, were a couple of pics of 24!! I'm mad I was sitting on the floor giggling like a school girl when I was going through them. hehehe... What a cutie!
7. BF was in Hampton with his family this weekend. His cousin had surgery, so they were going to check on her.
8. He's there for everyone, except me.
9. He's only getting a card from me for Father's Day.
10. I used to get him a bunch of stuff - back in the day when shyt wasn't so pissy.
11. OH WELL - HE AIN'T MY DADDY. I DON'T HAVE TO GET HIM ANYTHING!!
12. I found a poem titled "US" that BF wrote for me a couple years ago. It was a nice poem - at the end of it, it said that he was black man under construction... If this is the end product, then it was a waste!!
13. I also found a V-Day card that he had gotten me, w/ a sweet little note in it. After I got over the sentimental part, I just got mad because this concrete evidence that he has actually turned into a dick and I'm not just imagining things.
14. Shouldn't that make me feel better??
15. He's supposed to be coming over when he gets back into town. I've been giving him the cold shoulder, and he thinks we need to talk, so he can find out what's wrong?? I told him that there is nothing to talk about and there isn't. I've already expressed what my problem is with him - more than once- and not much has changed. I'm not a PHUCKEN parrot- I'm not gone keep repeating my self!!!
16. What's wrong with him??? It's all so easy!! Can he no longer comprehend basic information?
17. I can't remember the last time I wore THAT RING that he gave me - a year ago July 16th.
18. I can't remember the last time we've been intimate.
19. I think I need to get out of this relationship, before I go crazy and kill his ass!!!
20. I'm bored and sad - I'll probably call Ol' Boy tonight.
21. My girl Ang is coming in from The A this weekend! I'm so happy.
22. I love seein' my people from The D.
23. I miss having close girlfriends that I can go visit and just kick it with.
24. I talked to my cousin and my sister this week and they have both expressed the same feelings.
25. BF may not even come by tonight. I was pretty nasty to him when he called this afternoon. If he doesn't, I'll just catch up with him whenever. I won't be calling him.
26. Tomorrow is going to be a rough day at work.
27. I need a vacation.
28. I'm havin' some girls over on Saturday! I'm excited, most of them have never been here before. I haven't known a lot of them very long, but they are the closest to being like some o fhte people that I grew up with.
29. My girls Ria and Me are both coming. They're cousens, but they don't get along. I hope they'll be able to get it together. I would hate for them to be the first people that I have ever had to put out of the crib.
30. Alright, I'm 'bout to chill out. Have a good week!!

I'm Only Human, Dammit!

Last night, I was looking around on my computer and I found some old emails between 24 and myself. Now, 24 & I go waaay back to high school. He was not my first love, but there is something between us that neither one of can (or will) shake. Though he has gotten married and has a daughter, we still keep in touch via email. The conversations that we have had have been very interesting and a lot of them I have saved on this very computer. I had forgotten about a lot of the stuff that we have talked about, but when I was reviewing the emails, I had to LITERALLY Laugh Out Loud. One of the best emails consists of him telling me that he had some concerns about the upcoming class reunion...

"Hey stranger long time no hear from you. I need to talk to you about a little personal concern I have about our reunion. Would it be alright for me to call you one night to talk about it. If so give me a number where I can contact you at."

Now, given our "connection" I already knew what the deal was. Prior to his getting married, he asked if I would be cool with being his mistress... WTF?? I think he had me confused with some chick that is not very demanding. Anyway, I'm a player in this game of cat and mouse, so I guess it's my turn...

"WHAT KIND OF PERSONAL CONCERN DO YOU HAVE?"

In my opinion, that should have let him know that I was not about to go along with this bullshit. I mean, he knows me pretty well at this point. But he wants to continue with the game and I'm always down to straighten a negro out.

"The concern I have is seeing you at our class reunion. I feel that when we see each other it may be a little awkward for the both of us and I don't want us to feel that way. "

How kind of him... he is really taking my feelings into consideration, right?? Whatever!!! This is all about him, his wife & his guilt. So here goes...

"Ok, I figured that that was your concern, but why would you feel awkward? I know that we have a long history, but if you are comfortable in your situation, then there is no need to feel awkward. Unless, after all this time, you still have feelings. Do you? That's a rhetorical question, but it maybe something you need to consider. By the way- I am comfortable with the way things turned out, after all, I didn't have a choice. Let me assure you that I will be just fine during the reunion and I hope that you will be as well. Through all of this, I realized a long time ago that the feelings I had for you weren't going to amount to anything. And that's ok. It has been for a long time. I hope that I have cleared up any concern that you have and we don't have to have some long drawn out conversation about something that is as 'fixed' as it will ever be. There is so much more that could be said, but we will always end up in the same position that we have always been in, so I'll just leave it alone. ~J"

That was just one of the times that we had to exchange words over his craziness. For a while, he would come at me with crazy shit about twice a year. One other time, he needed clarification about whether or not I was sitting around waiting for him to "slip up and let me back into his life". Huh? Like I need a formal invitation. See, this leads me to believe that even though he knows me, he don't really know me. lol Anyway, I'll post that one at another time.... The reason that I'm posting about him today is because we have had yet another interesting exchange. This one was instigated by me- did I mention that I am not always an innocent stander by? This is just one of the things that I do for fun when I'm bored and things b/t me and BF are out of place...

Last night, I emailed him...

"Hey! I was looking through some old stuff and I came across your name. We've had some interesting conversations over the years... ;-) Anyway, I was just reminiscing... Remember the conversation we had about the reunion?? And the one about your friend suggesting that I was sitting around waiting for you?? lol... funny. Anyway, you were on my mind this evening, so I just wanted to drop in and say hello. HELLO! I'll chat w/ ya, soon!!"

Today, he emailed me back... Of course he would because if he didn't, the game would not be as interesting as it has been over the years. SO he says

"Oh now I'm old stuff (lol). That's funny because I was just talking about you the other day. I was talking to a friend who's thinking about moving to Virginia. He told me that if he did I couldn't come and visit because it would be to close to you."

Funny that every time we chat, he has JUST been talking to someone about me.

"You? In VA? hmmm... I don't know about that."

To which, he replies...

"That's pretty much what I thought about it. It would be too tempting or should I say you would be too tempting. "

Now the game goes on... I didn't respond, because that shut me up for a little bit. LOL - as much shit as I talk, I would never meet him here in VA. NEVER. I am grown and I know my limitations. I DO NOT BELIEVE IN PHUCKEN MARRIED MEN. That being said, I would never put myself in that situation with him. I am a woman of strong will power, but I'm only human, dammit!