I'm Not a Parrot

1. I've been in the house ALL day.
2. I've been cleaning out my office - shredding old documents, throwing away junk and reorganizing.
3. I just found out this weekend that I am a packrat.
4. How does so much shit accumulate??
5. I was going through some stuff on one of my bookcases and I found a bunch of old high school pics. I had to hurry up and look through them and put them away - otherwise I would STILL be looking through them and nothing would have gotten cleaned.
6. Amongst those pics, were a couple of pics of 24!! I'm mad I was sitting on the floor giggling like a school girl when I was going through them. hehehe... What a cutie!
7. BF was in Hampton with his family this weekend. His cousin had surgery, so they were going to check on her.
8. He's there for everyone, except me.
9. He's only getting a card from me for Father's Day.
10. I used to get him a bunch of stuff - back in the day when shyt wasn't so pissy.
11. OH WELL - HE AIN'T MY DADDY. I DON'T HAVE TO GET HIM ANYTHING!!
12. I found a poem titled "US" that BF wrote for me a couple years ago. It was a nice poem - at the end of it, it said that he was black man under construction... If this is the end product, then it was a waste!!
13. I also found a V-Day card that he had gotten me, w/ a sweet little note in it. After I got over the sentimental part, I just got mad because this concrete evidence that he has actually turned into a dick and I'm not just imagining things.
14. Shouldn't that make me feel better??
15. He's supposed to be coming over when he gets back into town. I've been giving him the cold shoulder, and he thinks we need to talk, so he can find out what's wrong?? I told him that there is nothing to talk about and there isn't. I've already expressed what my problem is with him - more than once- and not much has changed. I'm not a PHUCKEN parrot- I'm not gone keep repeating my self!!!
16. What's wrong with him??? It's all so easy!! Can he no longer comprehend basic information?
17. I can't remember the last time I wore THAT RING that he gave me - a year ago July 16th.
18. I can't remember the last time we've been intimate.
19. I think I need to get out of this relationship, before I go crazy and kill his ass!!!
20. I'm bored and sad - I'll probably call Ol' Boy tonight.
21. My girl Ang is coming in from The A this weekend! I'm so happy.
22. I love seein' my people from The D.
23. I miss having close girlfriends that I can go visit and just kick it with.
24. I talked to my cousin and my sister this week and they have both expressed the same feelings.
25. BF may not even come by tonight. I was pretty nasty to him when he called this afternoon. If he doesn't, I'll just catch up with him whenever. I won't be calling him.
26. Tomorrow is going to be a rough day at work.
27. I need a vacation.
28. I'm havin' some girls over on Saturday! I'm excited, most of them have never been here before. I haven't known a lot of them very long, but they are the closest to being like some o fhte people that I grew up with.
29. My girls Ria and Me are both coming. They're cousens, but they don't get along. I hope they'll be able to get it together. I would hate for them to be the first people that I have ever had to put out of the crib.
30. Alright, I'm 'bout to chill out. Have a good week!!