Dishonesty
I haven't used this blog how I had intended to use it... This was going to be my online journal - until the last few years, I have always kept a journal and then life happened & I stopped taking the time to write down my thoughts.
This blogging was supposed to replace that, but it hasn't. Now I find myself not taking the time to do this. Initially I was saying that I didn't have anything to write about, but that's not really the truth. The truth is that I don't take enough time out to sit down and relax... I have also shied (sp?)away from writing about situations that are too personal and revealing. For what, I don't know.... it's not like I have anything to lose. It's not like I have revealed any identifying information and truth be told, people rarely even visit this blog, so what the hell? ;-)
So in my attempt to use this as I had intended, here goes:
I am going to be in a wedding in Philly in August. One of the Grooms men - a.k.a Ol' Boy - is the groom's brother. We had a little somethin' somethin' goin on for a while a few years ago, but it fizzled due to distance and some other factors. He lives about 2 1/2 hours from me in Raleigh, NC. Anyway, it is inevitable that he weill be escorting me down the aisle. (Everyone in our little circle wants us to hook-up) The event should turn out to be very interesting...
Because of our past anf the present atrocity that I refer to as a relationship with BF, I have decided to go by myself- without BF. This will be the first wedding that I have gone to with out BF, since we started dating 4 years ago. Since I've already decided that he's not going, I have refrained from talking about it very much. I don't want him to start thinking that he has a chance in hell to go.
Before October - that's when the bottom fell out of this relationship, I had all intentions of taking BF to the wedding and showing him off. I was going to introduce him to everybody and have a good time watching Ol' Boy roll his eyes and being all jealoous. At this point, there's really nothing to be jealous about.
Last night, BF & I went to dinner (Tuesday is DATE NIGHT) & he asked me if I plan on going to the wedding. I think that was just a lead in, because he knows I'm going... I can't remember whether or not told him that I'm in, but he should know... she's one of my closest friends.... anyway... I told him yeah and that was it... LOL After that, he got all quiet. I guess he was waiting for me to invite him to with me. HA! That ain't gone happen!!!!
It's not even that I'm planning on messing around with Ol' Boy, but BF deserves to worry a little bit. He's been a real ASSHOLE over the last few months!! That's probably the wrong attitude to have, but it's probably going to be getting worse before it's all over.
The worst part about this whole thing with BF is that i know the type of person that he can and has been, so it pisses me off that he has turned into this jerk. I'm giving a little while longer and then I'm throwin' in the towel.
Have you ever been in a relationship that you thought you should've have given up on, but had a hard time letting go?
This blogging was supposed to replace that, but it hasn't. Now I find myself not taking the time to do this. Initially I was saying that I didn't have anything to write about, but that's not really the truth. The truth is that I don't take enough time out to sit down and relax... I have also shied (sp?)away from writing about situations that are too personal and revealing. For what, I don't know.... it's not like I have anything to lose. It's not like I have revealed any identifying information and truth be told, people rarely even visit this blog, so what the hell? ;-)
So in my attempt to use this as I had intended, here goes:
I am going to be in a wedding in Philly in August. One of the Grooms men - a.k.a Ol' Boy - is the groom's brother. We had a little somethin' somethin' goin on for a while a few years ago, but it fizzled due to distance and some other factors. He lives about 2 1/2 hours from me in Raleigh, NC. Anyway, it is inevitable that he weill be escorting me down the aisle. (Everyone in our little circle wants us to hook-up) The event should turn out to be very interesting...
Because of our past anf the present atrocity that I refer to as a relationship with BF, I have decided to go by myself- without BF. This will be the first wedding that I have gone to with out BF, since we started dating 4 years ago. Since I've already decided that he's not going, I have refrained from talking about it very much. I don't want him to start thinking that he has a chance in hell to go.
Before October - that's when the bottom fell out of this relationship, I had all intentions of taking BF to the wedding and showing him off. I was going to introduce him to everybody and have a good time watching Ol' Boy roll his eyes and being all jealoous. At this point, there's really nothing to be jealous about.
Last night, BF & I went to dinner (Tuesday is DATE NIGHT) & he asked me if I plan on going to the wedding. I think that was just a lead in, because he knows I'm going... I can't remember whether or not told him that I'm in, but he should know... she's one of my closest friends.... anyway... I told him yeah and that was it... LOL After that, he got all quiet. I guess he was waiting for me to invite him to with me. HA! That ain't gone happen!!!!
It's not even that I'm planning on messing around with Ol' Boy, but BF deserves to worry a little bit. He's been a real ASSHOLE over the last few months!! That's probably the wrong attitude to have, but it's probably going to be getting worse before it's all over.
The worst part about this whole thing with BF is that i know the type of person that he can and has been, so it pisses me off that he has turned into this jerk. I'm giving a little while longer and then I'm throwin' in the towel.
Have you ever been in a relationship that you thought you should've have given up on, but had a hard time letting go?
posted by Ms.Behavin at 10:11 AM
2 Comments:
I've been there before and stayed a whole lot longer than I should have because the sex was good. We were never able to have a conversation and we always argued about money and stuff like that. I'm glad I got out of it though.
Yeah. I feel like I stayed in both of my 2 serious relationships too long. Felt like if I just tried harder I could make it better. Only ended up making things worse.
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