JP on the brain

I have had JP on the mind, since yesterday morning. I haven’t thought about him in so long and that phone call had me reminiscing about all the crazy times we had. I called my cousin to tell her that I had spoken to him and she wasn't even shocked or excited. After listening to my story, she went off on her own tangent and that was the end of that…. She’s always like that. I don’t even know why I still let it bother me. But that's a whole different story...
N.E.Wayz…

• JP and I dated when I was 15 and he was 17. He was not my first boyfriend – that honor goes to O. But JP was the FIRST LOVE and Lawd knows I loved that Negroes dirty drawers!!!
• I was his first love as well- so we had some things goin’ on.
  We broke up every other Tuesday and got back together the following Thursday. LOL - kid stuff!
• All and all, we dated for about a year, but it seemed like forever! We broke up for good when I went away for Christmas break (11th grade) and he started screwin’ this chic named Yanna… Long story short- they ended up getting married several years later and he invited me to the wedding, so I attended. That probably sounds crazy but we had kept in touch over the years and I was sooo over him by the time he got married.
  

He has asked my cousin about me several times over the years and she told him that I was doing fine and kept him updated on the major events of my life – like graduating from NSU starting my new career, and building my house… All I really know of him, now is that he is married (obviously) and he has 2 children – one of which he had brought to see me a few times while I was home from school. You see, he ended up having a lot of regrets regarding our situation. I’m his ONE THAT GOT AWAY. You know that song by Babyface – What If?

So he didn’t call last night and I don’t know that he will. If he doesn’t, it’s no big deal, but I would love to talk to him! I believe that it’s good to keep up with your past – to an extent. It helps me appreciate how far I’ve come.