Salty This Sunday Morning

It is 8 sumthin' Sunday morning and I have an attitude! Bf went to a wedding in Hampton his weekend and I have not heard a word from him since Friday night. I didn't call yesterday, because I figured I would hear from him when he got a free moment. I know how hectic it can get when you hook up w/ your boys that you rarely see. I have been guilty of waiting a while to call - more than once. But it is now Sunday and he has not called - not one time. Not at work... not on my cell... not at my house... hmmmmm...... I really don't think this negro gets this whole relationship thing anymore.
I started to call him yesterday evening, but I didn't feel like arguing, b/c you already know that that is what it would have been. Then I started to text him, but nothing good could have come from that, either. It would have been something smart like "you must be having a good time, since you can't even pick up the fuckin' phone and call" LOL - now who really wants to receive a text like that - you see, so it was best that I just didn't contact him at all. He sux. I need to do something about him. We have already given back each others keys... We took care of that last Sunday when we had a big ass argument. He swears that he wants to be with me, but not even 7 days after that big ass argument, I'm sitting here pissed off again!!
N.E.Wayz...
This is going to be a short week at work. I have to go a meeting in Winchester on Tuesday and Wednesday and then on Friday, I'm leaving for Raleigh. Come to think of it, this was probably the worst time for BF to go out of town and not call. I hate to be spiteful, but I do expect to be treated the way that he would like me to treat him.... So, I'm thinking that he won't be hearing much from me this week.
His actions make Ol' Boy look better and better every day.
N.E. Wayz...
I went to see Final Destination 3 last night with one of my Sorors. It was what I expected. Not too bad, considering what it was. It did get me out of the house for a bit and kept my mind off of BF. If I had been just sitting around the house, I would have been fuming and and the I would have HAD TO CALL.
Well, let me check out a few other blogs and then I guess I'll get out of here and go shopping. Have a good day!

Platonic friends???

I went to my book club meeting last night. We had read Prodigal Husband by Jacqueline Thomas. It was pretty good and a fast read. After the games and initial discussion -someone asked the question "Do you think Men & Women can truly be PLATONIC friends?" Everyone had their only view on it, but this is what I think: It ALL depends on the circumstance - not the individual. I tend to believe that if there are 2 people that are attractive to one another and just friends, then eventually someone will cross the line- if only for a sneaky freak. Consider these circumstances:

• Both of you are available (meaning that regardless of the individuals dating/marital status, he/she has entertained the possibility of seeing if the grass is really greener on the other side)
• You confide in each other on the same level you would confide in a good girlfriend
• You find him attractive - not necessarily fine. But he is someone that you would consider if you bumped into him out on the streets
• No one would have to find out... y'all are cool and spend a great deal of time together, anyway.

Ok, so what would stop you??? I believe that if all of these circumstances presented themselves, then lines would be crossed. Not that I have experience in this matter, but I'm just sayin'. ;-) And if you believe that Men and Women can really be JUST FRIENDS, then is it safe to say that you don't have any problems with your significant other having best friends of the opposite sex?? Just a thought...
N.E.Wayz...
I'm going to Raleigh for The Women's Empowerment Convention this weekend. That's where Ol' Boy lives so, I will probably see him. He's my friend, Mik's, fiance's brother. We usually get together as a group every year at this time. I didn't bother tryin' to see him last year, because I was all about BF at the time... How things have changed in just 1 little year!!! Not that I'm not still feelin' BF, but I also am in serious need of some attention.
I'm not expecting any fireworks, but I'm looking forward to the trip. For one, I haven't seen Mik since last summer when she came to visit for our annual Ladies at The Lake weekend. Secondly- I always enjoy Chillin' out with this group of women. We are a diverse group of friends and family- ranging in age from 30-70 sumthin'. We all bring different views & life's experiences to the table. We solve the problems of the world for one weekend - every year. In the evening, we put on our club gear, leave the older crowd at home, go out on the town and drink, dance, & talk shit until the sun comes up.

JP on the brain

I have had JP on the mind, since yesterday morning. I haven’t thought about him in so long and that phone call had me reminiscing about all the crazy times we had. I called my cousin to tell her that I had spoken to him and she wasn't even shocked or excited. After listening to my story, she went off on her own tangent and that was the end of that…. She’s always like that. I don’t even know why I still let it bother me. But that's a whole different story...
N.E.Wayz…

• JP and I dated when I was 15 and he was 17. He was not my first boyfriend – that honor goes to O. But JP was the FIRST LOVE and Lawd knows I loved that Negroes dirty drawers!!!
• I was his first love as well- so we had some things goin’ on.
  We broke up every other Tuesday and got back together the following Thursday. LOL - kid stuff!
• All and all, we dated for about a year, but it seemed like forever! We broke up for good when I went away for Christmas break (11th grade) and he started screwin’ this chic named Yanna… Long story short- they ended up getting married several years later and he invited me to the wedding, so I attended. That probably sounds crazy but we had kept in touch over the years and I was sooo over him by the time he got married.
  

He has asked my cousin about me several times over the years and she told him that I was doing fine and kept him updated on the major events of my life – like graduating from NSU starting my new career, and building my house… All I really know of him, now is that he is married (obviously) and he has 2 children – one of which he had brought to see me a few times while I was home from school. You see, he ended up having a lot of regrets regarding our situation. I’m his ONE THAT GOT AWAY. You know that song by Babyface – What If?

So he didn’t call last night and I don’t know that he will. If he doesn’t, it’s no big deal, but I would love to talk to him! I believe that it’s good to keep up with your past – to an extent. It helps me appreciate how far I’ve come.

Loved Me Some Him...

My morning got off to a crazy start. This morning while I was sitting at my desk, I was thinking of a hundred excuses to get out of doing any kind of work today. The real issue is that I was just too damned tired. I had sorta planned on trying to come in a little late, but that didn't happen.
N.E. Ways...
I was standing out in the hall chatting with a couple co-workers when I heard my cell phone ringing on my desk I went a grabbed it from off of my desk and answered it once I got out in the hall. Before I answered it, I realized that it was an unfamiliar 313 number(Detroit- my hometown). When I answered it, I could hear someone talking, but it wasn't clear. After saying hello several times, I just hung up. Initially I was concerned about it, but then I started thinking that it was one of my relatives tryin' to contact me for a reason - so I called the number back.
When the phone was answered it was a familiar male voice, but I didn't know who it was.

=> Hello?
=> Hey, what's up?
=> Nothin', how are you?
=> I'm fine.
=> Do you know who this is?
=> No
=> It's JP.....

Okay, JP is from waaaaay back in the day. He was my first LOVE. Now even though this relationship was in high school I still remember how crazy in love I was with him. I think I loved him more than his own Momma did - at the time. We have had some CRAZY times, and we haven't talked in YEARS. As a matter of fact, I don't remember the last time I talked to him, but I want to say that it's something crazy like 5-6 years ago. The last time we really hung out was the summer that he got married.... Strange, right? We didn't kick it - it was just that I was home from school for the summer and we just seemed to spend a lot of time together.... He's my God Daughter's God Father. We go waaay back.
Imagine my shock when it was HIM on the other end. We small-talked for a few minutes and then I got off the phone. My office phone lines were all lit up. I told him to give me a call later on. Who knows whether he will or not, but we'll see. I'd actually like to talk to him. I haven't even thought about him in a grip.

RACIST or JUST IGNORANT???

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random rambling

Well, I got my apology... BF called right after I finished blogging about his insensitive, rude ass behavior. Why did this negro have the nerve to try to STILL have an attitude??? I don't think he realized the depth of how bad my day actually was.
He was trying' to give me some bullshit, but I was not going for it! He finally apologized when he shut up long enough to realize that this was a serious BAD DAY and not just some penny-Anny bullshit bad hair day or something'.
My Mom and I went to DC to see the Pistons play the Wizards. I was so excited!! I hadn't been to a game since I moved away from Detroit 13 years ago!! It's hard to believe that I've been away for that long!!!! CRAZY!!!! Anyway, Although the Pistons have the best record in the NBA, they got their asses WHOOPED!!!!!! What?? This is the worse whoopin' they have received during this whole season!!!! The wizards were droppin' 3's like they were going' outta style!!!! So even thought my boys lost, we still had a good time. Afterward, we ate at Legal Seafood. The food is really good!! While we were waiting to be seated, I ran into an old friend of mine from high school. I hadn't seen her in a few years and it was really odd to run into her in DC, seeing as though we grew up in Detroit.
We were never really close, and I had to dig in her ass once or twice. It's funny when you grow up, how all that old bull just goes away. I'm so mature!! lol It was really good to see her, though. I got her info and told her that I will keep in touch. I try to get to DC a couple times a year, so maybe I'll give her a call next time.
Oh yeah -I talked to Ol' Boy the other night. He called while he was on break. He works 7p-7a, I work 7:30a-6:30p.... just another addition to the list of why we would never work out. He wasn't talking about much of anything, but sometimes it's just nice to talk to him.
I'll probably see him in April, when I visit his hometown... I don't expect anything big to happen. I'm not even feel' him like that anymore. He' s going to be in a wedding that I'm going to be in- in September. What do you want to bet that he'll be escorting me down the aisle?? Isn't that funny? Our friends are a trip. Guess what? I am NOT taking BF. First of all that would just be waaaay too weird and with the way things have been going, we may not be together at that time, anyway. Sad, but true.... Things are just soooo different from what they were. I'm tired of talkin' about it to him and bloggin' about it, but you how you have something on your mind that you just feel compelled to talk about??? That's how I feel about this situation. SO, I'll be talking about it until it's over or fixed - I'm not sure which will come first.
I wish I wasn't obsessed with this situation, but it just blows my mind how much has changed in just 1 year. Last year, for Valentine's Day we went to his cousin's wedding in Hampton. We had THE BEST TIME EVER. I don't know what it was about that weekend, but it was GREAT!!!! We had been building up to that and it stayed like that for months... and now it's like this--WTF??? How did we get here??
I'm doing better at pulling a way from him, though. Friday night he stopped by - unannounced- which is not a big deal, but I was in the bed KNOCKED OUT. He called and told me that he was on the porch and wanted to know if I was going to open the door or did I just want him to let himself in. I told him neither and that I would have to see him later. It wasn't that I didn't want to see him at all. but in order for him to come in, I would've had to get up and turn the alarm off. I just couldn't do it. He was pissed, but I didn't trip. Why should I sit around just waiting for this negro to show up or care??? Hmmmm.. that just doesn't make sense. The bottom line is that I need to do what makes me happy an the truth is that he's not doing it...... the question is why am I sitting around not doing anything about it?? The answer: I love him. SAD. How long will I be in this predicament?? I wish I knew.
=> I'm going into the 2nd week of my diet and things are still going well. I think I may have lost a little weight. I'm not weighing myself, I'm just basing it on how I feel in my clothes. I actually wore some pants to work on Friday that I hadn't worn in a while. I was supposed to do Tae.bo tonight, but after being on the road 3 1/2 hours from DC - I'm just too tired. Tomorrow- it's back to business!! Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Pissy Day

• I have two days of Tae.bo under my belt. I had never done it before and that shyt is hard. I hope this pays off - you know swimsuit season is right around the corner, right?? I have to keep reminding myself of that. I'm pretty sore, so I guess it must be working. The only place I have to workout is in my TV room which is right in front of a window which is facing my neighbors house. hehehe- Hopefully their not peepfreaks, but phukum if they have nothing more interesting to do than watching kickboxin' the fat away. Afterall, working out is definitely not he most interesting thing that I've done in that room. ;-)
• My new person started in the office on Tuesday. I am very pleased with her, so far. She is a little younger than most of the people that I have hired, but I think she is going to work out just fine. I'm pleased with her and she came back to the office 3 days in a row!!! Which is more than I can say for at least 3 other people that I had hired over the last 2 years.
• I had a bad day at work, today. It's upsetting and I don't even feel like going into the details. After having a pissy day, BF acted like a fuckin' asshole. Now I had already told this negro when I talked to him earlier that I was having a bad day. I was super busy from beginning to end and I didn't have time (or take time) to call him ALL day. I got off early and headed to dinner with a few girlfriends. I called him on my way to dinner and he didn't answer, so I didn't worry about leaving a message. He calls while I'm sitting at the table and I answered the phone while I was in the middle of talking to someone at the table. No big deal, right?? Well, by the time (one to two seconds) that I said hello, he was hollering HELLO on the phone. Okay - that is not a good start... He got rude once I asked him why he was yellin' on the phone. I excused myself from the table, because this was obviously not heading in a good direction. I went outside to finish talkin' and he was carrying on like some kind of phucken loon. I told him that I had already had a bad day and that I didn't need his shyt. You know this negro said "well calm me when you have some phucken sense!!!" -OK, I hung up before he finished, because his ass was REALLY trippin'!!!!!! Needless to say, he will NOT be receiving a call - tonight or any other!!! How rude!!!!! Selfish bastard!!! I deserve an apology dammit and I'm going to be pissed off until I receive it!!!
• Well I guess I'm getting in the bed. Thankfully tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!! Unfortunately, I'm on this diet and am forced to skip my Friday morning Bacon and Spinach Souffle at Panera's. Regardless - I'm going to have a better day tomorrow - even if I have to kill someone to achieve it!!! Just kidding - sort of. ;-)

Starting today...

• I'm back from Charlotte!!

=> Charlotte was good! We had a really good time! We partied and drank & partied and drank!! So that was cool...

=>I TALKED to Ol' Boy, but we didn't see each other. I sent him a text Saturday night and he called me. Come to find out, we had partied right across the street from one another Friday night. We talked for a minute - about nothing in particular and that was it. No fireworks, no nothin'. It was nice to talk to him, because it's been a while, but that was it.

Honestly, I called him because of the stuff (or lack of stuff) that's going on w/ BF & I. If all we're good b/t us, Ol' Boy would be the last person on my mind. The reason that I left him alone, initially, is because things started getting serious b/t BF & I and I realized that as long as I was keepin' in contact w/ Ol'' Boy that we couldn't move forward. So, this is what I get for trying to be honest, up front and mature. I should have known there would be consequences!

=> My girl did not leaving me hangin'. She is really cool to hang out with. You never know how folks will act, but it worked out good. She likes to dance as much as I do, so we stayed on the floor for the whole weekend!!! We didn't get in until 5:30 a.m. on Saturday and she was cool with that. We'll definitely be coincide of town again. As a matter of fact, we have planned to go back to Charlotte on a shopping trip sometime this Spring.

• My diet started Today...

=> Plain Oatmeal is some nasty shit!!! I put cinnamon, fresh strawberries and 2 packets of Splenda in it. It was gross- but I choked it down!! You know swimsuit season is right around the corner?!?!?!

=> Ok, I must be really greedy! By 10:30, I was starting to feel faint. I had some cottage cheese - for the first time ever. It's not the worst thing that I've ever tasted, but I had to really concentrate so that I wouldn't throw up. I bought a couple of those little cottage cheese and fruit tubs, so that's what I'll be snacking on throughout the week. I need to rid myself of about 20 lbs. For lunch, I'm having a whole wheat pita with turkey, spinach, low fat cheese & low fat dressing and an orange. Doesn't that sound sooo exciting?? Well, after I finish torturing myself throughout the day, I'll go home and do some Tae.bo. All this healthy eating and exercising that I am about to embark on better do me some good!!!

Flamin' Panties Are Not Cute

• Old Boy From Back In The Day -- The CIAA tournament is this weekend!!! I still haven't talked to Ol' Boy. He called and left me a message last week some time and I've yet to call him back. I'm very leary of trying to contact him. Why?? Because he is not the one that I want. I already know what he's about and I don't think that we would ever work out. The perfect scenario would be that we just run into each other at a party or something... The likelihood of that happening: NONE. I have been very conflicted about this. I was talking to one of my girlfriends and she said DO NOT CALL HIM. She remembers the days that I would have walked across hot coals with gasoline doused panties on. (the lacy, frilly ones- of course ;-)
• I'm a little nervous about my travels this weekend. I'm going with one of my Sorors that I have never traveled with before. We met sometime last year and we hit it off - right away. She is super cool, so I know we'll have a good time, but she is super friendly & I don't think she plans on hangin' around me for most of the time. She appears to be one of those people who is going to get to the club and go do her own thing- then we'll just meet up at the end of the night or when we decide to go.... Usually, my girls and I go together and pretty much hang out together throughout the night with the exception of tearing up the dance floor. I don't want to be wondering looking all lost...