The bed you made of rocks and sharp objects is hard to sleep on, isn't it?

So, this has been an interesting few days. I told you I had to break it off w/ BF- now known as exBF.
Yesterday was still more of the same niceties. He even stopped by my job to tell me some crazy ass story about some of his family stuff. I can't even remember the last time that happened. It was cool day - he called a lot, but most of the time, I was too busy to talk to him.. The office was jumpin' yesterday. When I had some extra time, I decided not to call him and even ignored a few of his calls. Not that I didn't wanna talk to him, but I'm really just tryna gather my thoughts. We talked a few different times yesterday and it was real cool - like it used to be back in the day.
Last night before I got in the bed, I was startin' to wonder why I hadn't heard from him for a while, but then I just let that go... I had told myself that I was not going to expect to hear from or see him, so whatever happens, happens.
Not too long after I got in the bed, he called and said that he was downstairs in the drive way and that he would just catch me tomorrow. I told him that I would get up and come downstairs. Because, I was in the bed - I was naked and had to get up and throw some clothes on, right quick. I just picked up the t-shirt and capris that I had just taken off and went downstairs to get the door.
When I opened the door, he was surprised (and apparently disappointed) that I was fully dressed. LOL - it was a little silly, but I HAD to put clothes on and I didn't have time to be searchin'' for pajamas. :-)
He didn't stay for long, he said he was checkin' on me, cuz I hadn't been feelin well. How sweet. :^) We talked for a little bit and then he started askin' me if I want him to stop calling me as much and stoppin' by. I stold him, I didn't have a problem with him coming by. Then he started questioning why I was fully dressed. Ha!
anyway, he left... 2 minutes after I got back in the bed, he called. Now he wants to know what's goin' on between us. He explained how he likes it better like this - to a degree. In a nutshell, he said that I had gotten to clingy and lovey-dovey, when the relationship had not started out as such. But he doesn't like the fact that NOW he can't kiss me or touch me or that I have to come downstairs in the middle of the night FULLY dressed. :-) SO if he likes it better this way, then what the hell is the problem?? He hasn't been worried about being playful, or affectionate for months, so now that we have arrived at this point- what's the problem? The problem is that he feels like he has lost control of the situation- which, speaking from experience, is an uncomfortable feeling. He's worried that I'll be dating soon and he just wants to know where he stands... Worried about me seein' Ol' Boy next week in Philly ...Worried about seein' me out w/ someone else ...Worried about stoppin' by just to find out that I already have company. ... Worried cus he just doesn't know, but I haven't known for the last SEVERAL months!! It sux when you gotta turn around and swallow the same shit you been dishin' out.
I mean, I get it, but I'm hurt and sad over the way this whole thing has gone down. SO, now I'm just tryna figure out what's really good. Who is this man?
I get what he was saying about how I changed and got all serious, but I was tryin so hard to fix what was happening in the relationship. Then I got all mad and bitter - i.e. ANGRY BLACK WOMAN. I stayed havin' an attitude. :-D Not that I'm proud of that, but I have to look out for me and a lot of times, it's a bad attitude that I use as my armor to guard against the bullshit.
This scenario has been on my mind all day! So, we're supposed to be going to the movies tonight. Goin' to see Miami Vice which is what we were supposed to be goin' to see on Sunday, before The Breakup.
He's been actin' funny today, but I'm not gonna let it faze me. I have given up on the attitude and for right now, I'm tryna keep really cool. I asked him if just wanted to meet at the theatre or over one of our houses. He said "Whatever you're most comfortable with". lol- really??