Am I really that crazy?
I've never considered myself to be a particularly jealous person... Until this year. I have had a terrible time... I am 3o years old and I had NEVER done a DRIVE BY - until this year!!!
After not hearing from BF late at night and not being able to get in touch with him. I left my house at 3 in the morning and drove past his house to if there was anyone parked over there!!!!! Obviously there wasn't. Otherwise, I would be blogging from jail. lol - this relationship has REALLY had me tripping, lately. (note- it only takes 5 minutes to get to his house, from my mine....3 when I'm mad)
Usually. I'm a pretty trusting person. I've have had my share of good & bad relationships, but through it all I have prided myself in NOT being the prodding, doubting, questioning Girlfriend. Either you told me the truth or you didn't. If it was a lie, I would deal with it when I found out and go about by business.
The relationship between my BF and I has been so rocky that I have questioned him - on several occasions. It had gotten to the point that I'm surprised we didn't break up over the questions- alone.
The good news is that I've gotten over that part... I figure whatever will be, will be. There is NO need to drive myself insane over things that I have no control over. Our relationship is better, but nothing like it was 7 months ago. :-( The shit was driving me CRAZY.
To remedy my impending insanity, I have decided to back off for a bit. If this relationship works out, it will be because he put in some effort. Otherwise, we'll just kinda melt away. (sad) I don't call like I used to. He has got to step up to the plate!!! Unfortunately, it's 3:00 and we haven't talked since about 9 this morning. Now, this may not be shocking to some, but we used to ALWAYS talk throughout the day.... For the second day in a row. :-( This is so sad to me. Oh well, I feel as though I have done everything that I know to do. I'll just have to see how this works out...
After not hearing from BF late at night and not being able to get in touch with him. I left my house at 3 in the morning and drove past his house to if there was anyone parked over there!!!!! Obviously there wasn't. Otherwise, I would be blogging from jail. lol - this relationship has REALLY had me tripping, lately. (note- it only takes 5 minutes to get to his house, from my mine....3 when I'm mad)
Usually. I'm a pretty trusting person. I've have had my share of good & bad relationships, but through it all I have prided myself in NOT being the prodding, doubting, questioning Girlfriend. Either you told me the truth or you didn't. If it was a lie, I would deal with it when I found out and go about by business.
The relationship between my BF and I has been so rocky that I have questioned him - on several occasions. It had gotten to the point that I'm surprised we didn't break up over the questions- alone.
The good news is that I've gotten over that part... I figure whatever will be, will be. There is NO need to drive myself insane over things that I have no control over. Our relationship is better, but nothing like it was 7 months ago. :-( The shit was driving me CRAZY.
To remedy my impending insanity, I have decided to back off for a bit. If this relationship works out, it will be because he put in some effort. Otherwise, we'll just kinda melt away. (sad) I don't call like I used to. He has got to step up to the plate!!! Unfortunately, it's 3:00 and we haven't talked since about 9 this morning. Now, this may not be shocking to some, but we used to ALWAYS talk throughout the day.... For the second day in a row. :-( This is so sad to me. Oh well, I feel as though I have done everything that I know to do. I'll just have to see how this works out...
posted by Ms.Behavin at 11:42 AM
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